Here’s a little something that springs to mind, on this, the birthday of Ralph Vaughan Williams.
I am the proud owner of two Sibelius signatures. One is at the end of a typed letter, of which admittedly many exist, in which the composer extends his thanks to a grateful fan for the gift of some “excellent cigars.” This I obtained from another dealer during my years in the book trade. The other is a signed photograph given to me by the composer’s grandson, with whom I had formed a friendship during his years in Philadelphia. Needless to say, I am beyond happy to have these.
But I might have had three, had I been able to make up my mind to commit to the considerable expense of a letter I found online a few years ago, which was written by Sibelius to Vaughan Williams on the occasion of the latter’s 80th birthday.
Sibelius and Vaughan Williams are my two favorite composers in the entire history of the world. The two inhabited a mutual admiration society, with Vaughan Williams dedicating his Symphony No. 5 to Sibelius, “without permission and with the sincerest flattery.” (For whatever reason, Sibelius exercised an incalculable influence over composers in the U.K. And thank goodness for it!) Fortunately, Sibelius very much enjoyed the piece. So clearly this letter would have had powerful associations for me.
Sadly, prudence prevailed. In my hesitation, someone else bought it, and a while later I found it on another site listed at a higher price. Eventually, it turned up at auction, where it sold for £2400.
It’s a decision that still tugs at my heart. It would have been an enormous expenditure for me, but it’s not like it would have put me on the streets. I just wouldn’t have paid any bills and not eaten very well and been stressed out for a while. It’s not like it hadn’t happened before. I’d have gotten by somehow.
Since then, I kind of wish I had just made the leap into the void. Now, I’m doomed to look back wistfully, as in the poem of Whittier:
For of all sad words of tongue and pen,
The saddest are these: “It might have been!”
PHOTOS: Vaughan Williams with Foxy; and the one that got away




